A New Way

I found one of my notebooks on clearing out our attic yesterday and in it my morning pages (a stream of consciousness) from last november which in reflection seems to be about the 11.11.11 Time portal/Stargate . On reflecting about the past year and the way many people have been pushed into living their truth, in other words not hiding from what they feel is the right and true way for them, i really do think that deep changes and big shifts have been happening.

"Stargate- the opening, the awakening, the portal. A clear wide open channel/doorway for utter connection, total renewal, transformation, a wholeness and healing on every level including the old mental attitudes shed and new whole ones formed, a new way, a new walk, an old remembrance a remembrance of the old way. Vulnerabilities, vulnerability stepping out, arms wide open, free, new direction threatens the old, but it has reached a tipping point, the new way is stronger than the old so it will break down the walls and previous borders and boundaries will shift or will be removed all together. Wide open, transparent, new wave is the new way. Trust, honesty, truth will be the the new tenants to stand by-people know the truth because they sense it, they will listen to this/these feelings and go where their intuition says it is safe and reliable to go. No more capitalist lies and greed. It is all about the community, the common good, working together for the greater good-support, relationships, a process of community, family and relation that makes everyone accountable/responsible. We all need to step up to create the world we want to see and live in."

A few days before, this was in my morning pages:

"Stars so bright, dancing, sparkling, hanging in your path, shimmering, reflecting light, jewels of radiance, happiness, connection. Gems to keep, to protect, to value, to use, to heal, to seal, to place on broken damaged unhealed elements, parts, places in people. They glimmer they are in reach, you touch them, feel their light, their energy. You grasp them in your arms, holding them all to your chest, each one slowly disappearing into you, pop, pop, pop and your mouth opens and you sing. Your body, your light body opens, a bright shining light, to reveal energy of all colours dancing and merging and moving with vibrance and health. They are spiralling through your whole body waking up every cell as they go deep deep into every part of your body, waking up the blood, the tissue, the lymph, the organs, each part down to the smallest element, around your digestion, your heart. Kicking out a whole lot of rubbish and unneeded things at your throat and on up into your head, your brain, clearing out all the pathways, the old unuseful ways of thinking. Lighting up some areas so that you are vibrant, go getting, risk taking and whooshing with creativity and bounce......"

Funnily enough since that time my shamanic healing work has really opened and i have been able to say for the first time to everyone that this is what i do. Now i am seeing clients regularly and it is amazing and such a privilege to do this work, what a wonderful life, i feel really blessed!!

Time

Time to write, time to dream, time to be the mother i would like to be! Things run on and as i look back i realise that although many dreams of how i wanted to be as a mother had to change due to energetic circumstances and in some ways i could say therefore fell short of my ideals, many things have by far surpassed anything i thought possible and i am proud oh so proud to be saying that. I struggled with M.E for many years before having children, struggling to function in a normal way and needing endless recovery time (as just one part of the experience) yet i didn't want to wait to 'get better' fully before having children because i felt at the time that this may never happen or it may take a looong time, i  also had no idea about what was involved...selfish probably but wow what a journey and one i would not change for the world. When i so easily became pregnant in the first month i was seriously thrilled but i also panicked about exactly how i would cope and then for sure when i had my second that i would not make it. Throughout the last 4 years i have been so stretched emotionally and physically (and especially having moved abroad when my eldest son was 4 months old taking away any support network which is so vital) that sometimes i thought it was not possible to go on, yet i've done it/am doing it and along the way i have learnt so much (wow what a serious spiritual lesson and learning about oneself and others having children is) and the boys have been such a joy. I've also had some serious opportunities to heal further namely being intuitively led into a high raw food way of eating, being the beneficiary of some incredible, infact mind blowing Life Alignment Therapy from my incredible mum  ( i love her recent blog post) and some other wonderful healers including the beautiful Alice and really recently finding that the natural approach to healing my severe Thyroid issue was as simple as the raw food diet with high doses of Dr.Vogels Kelp tablets, this has taken the edge off the raw, mind numbing dragging myself through the day exhaustion and the horrendous depression and anger that came with it. I am seriously happy and healthy right now and i have two bright happy boys, I am doing it, i am being a mum with all the energetic demands that that makes and i realise that i am well, i am coping and although there are a few things that i have had to compromise due to my energy levels i feel that is is pretty darn amazing to be here and to be coping so well. I am a full time mum right now and that is just such bliss, i feel very lucky to be doing exactly that ( i wonder what throwing work into the mix would be like) and i hope i have the courage to keep going against the Norwegian system by keeping my children at home for longer than the norm. There is a fabulous book that helps to inspire one to do just this:  "Life Without School: The Quiet Revolution" (or on amazon here)- i am slowly working my way through the whole Mother Magazine book list which is just a blissful journey as is the bi monthly magazine!Motherhood is a blissful, mind expanding, stretching and life changing experience and golly i love those boys to bits and pieces:

Theodore and Sebastian July 2011

“If you are going to doubt something, doubt your limits”.

Don Ward

Essence

This image makes me smile it gives me the feeling of waking up on a sunny morning full of bounce and zing, that utter happiness that i remember from my childhood when the holidays lasted for ever and we knew we were free to play in the fields and woods all day. It comes from the How to Raw Love blog which is also filled with images of delicious raw food.

This image also caught my eye, it's an extract from the book the owner of the blog is writing which has a little bit about raw bath time and herbal things/essential oils to treat illness. Take a peek HERE.

Super Exciting Conscious Parenting Summit

YEAH the *free* Conscious Parenting Summit hosted by Matt Monarch and Angela Stokes-Monarch of the Raw Food World has begun, but only just so there is still time to access the first interview by Ingrid Bauer on elimination communication. Click HERE to sign up and to listen to Matt and Angela explain what it's all about. It is seriously worth checking it out and signing up to access each of the main interviews (as well as all the bonus interviews and material) from the 16 inspiring speakers from around the world. They will be speaking on topics such as conscious conception, healthy pregnancy, natural birthing, vaccinations, children's nutrition, breastfeeding, cosleeping and more ....and each interview is available for 24 hours. 

Here is a look at the 16 experts on conscious parenting that are involved in this summit:

You can also read more about each one on the conscious parenting website here.

Angela Stokes Monarch with her gorgeous daughter Oria

(see her blog RawReform here.)

Be gentle with yourself

Picture from the house of Melissa de la Fuente as part of the 'Living with Kids' series on the Design Mom blog.

“Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love – for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment is it perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you from misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labours and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.” 
― Max Ehrmann, Desiderata: A Poem for a Way of Life 

Light Workers....

are the ones who serve the Light. They "inspire, uplift and flow with Grace, embodying All That Is and mirroring that back to everyone and everything. It means Love, in all its potently infused, flitting and eternal forms. It means showing up and responding whenever Source calls, however that manifests itself in whatever reality. In my own expression, it often means blogging, teaching, painting, writing, and transmitting energy through words, gestures, vibration or intention. It definitely means lovemaking — but not just sexual — lovemaking in the sense of experiencing intimacy with the Earth and all her creatures, as well as the Stars, Galactics, Angels, and beyond. It means pouring Love into the dark spots and holding Love even when the world resists. It means becoming such a vibrational match to Love that everything else can re-member and revisit itself as Love." Laura Bruno

But is that really possible and what does that actually mean on a daily basis? Well i feel that we are all light workers in some way but being a full time mum at this point in time i often feel far away from any of this and far away from the ideal joyful, relaxed and creative mother that i would like to be, let alone the spirited healer. I am often crabby, grumpy and desperate for a little space and sleep. I feel daily that tomorrow i must start anew and really make this day better than the last. To try harder to make things work or respond better to those around me. I want nothing more than to be the one with my children every day, experiencing things with them, keeping a home for them and trying to create a nurturing space and i know that this is the (spiritual) work, this is the journey, this is the challenge and the delight and somewhere in there good stuff is happening and joyful moments are being created. But it can also be hard to see it and to know that you are doing a good job, that you are sending out some good and some light into the world rather than feeling that it is rather relentless and you need to cry into the nappy bucket because you feel far away from being a good mother ( friend etc etc ). Thank goodness my boys are so utterley scrumptious that i want to be better for them and that when they come and cuddle up on my lap or when they squeal with delight at discovering something or when they called me mama for the first time, my heart melts and i realise even more so that this is it, this is where it all is, this is where i m meant and want to be and that i do shine the light into the darkness and i do hold that space no matter what is thrown at me because i love and ultimately that makes me a better person and a better light worker too.

Suddenly, My Body

In this powerful TEDWomen talk "Suddenly, my body" Eve Ensler, creator of The Vagina Monologues, poet, writer and activist talks about her life long disconnection from her body -- and how two shocking events helped her to connect with the reality, the physicality of being human. She quotes Philip Sheperd from his  new book "New Self New World" -"If you are divided from your body you are also divided from the body of the world, which then appears to be other than you or seperate from you rather than the living continuem to which you belong".
She speaks about our relationship to ourselves and to the earth and suggests that we are all organs of this earth, and as such the earth’s problems are our diseases, and our diseases are manifestations of what is ill in the world. She invites each and everyone of us to realize that we are all “swimming” in this larger context, that our lives—not just hers, but all of ours—are all intertwined. Her story reminds us of our deep kinship with nature, of the emotional link between our bodies and the body we call Earth.

The Beautiful Green

La Belle Verte

Finally, a film that presents the quirks of our modern and frantic living in a very humorous and simple way. This film doesn't "try" to make you laugh, you just do so because you can see yourself in it. La Belle Verte/The Beautiful Green (1996) is a French film written and directed by Colin Serreau which tells a beautiful story strongly encompassing the need to bring a spiritual balance of ecology, love and compassion to today’s world. It is about awakening and reawakening to ourselves and to what is important in life. We have become so disconnected from the earth and from ourselves and somehow we need to find a way back, to find a balance and perhaps to simplify things or at least to realise some simple truths. Originally in French, the film's protagonist is Mila who is half earthling and half alien! She lives on a planet far away from ours which is much more spiritually advanced and ecologically balanced than ours. They have already been through, and survived, an industrial revolution, different political systems, borders and money among other things and have ended up being a spiritually advanced race of peace loving raw fooders, skilled in the arts of telepathy and teleportation. The alien planet wants to send a representative to Earth to check on its developments and gauge the energy levels there. 

They send Mila who is 150 years old and has five children; encoded in her brain are two telepathic programs designed to restructure the thinking of destructive humans. The first is a fairly mild program designed to inspire the humans to rethink their world and begin asking some difficult questions. The other is far stronger and rapidly indoctrinates subjects with lofty utopian ideals and makes them deeply aware of themselves.

Mila lands in Paris and is unnoticed but for the sudden, inexplicable power surges and outages that occur whenever she sends a telepathic message to her alien cohorts. Instead of eating, Mila draws energy from holding newborn babies.It is while holding an orphan infant in an obstetrics ward that her Earthly troubles begin. Feeling deeply for the baby's plight, she confronts the ward's head doctor and when logic fails, lets one of her programs work on him. He sees the light and begins helping her to save the baby from the welfare workers. He reawakens to the beauty in life. 

You can see the whole thing on YouTube here or buy the Dvd on amazon here.  Please stick with this utterly amazing (must see) film that highlights the many unfortunate flaws of the Human race. As well as being extremely funny, it's incredibly insightful and thought provoking. 

A Magical Journey

I would like to share with you my most recent shamanic journey, it is beautiful and full of blessings that  i hope will filter down into my every day life overtime and touch yours too. 

I see stars, see light that is star bright. "Allow the mysteries of the universe to unfold and with it your dreams of a home, to nurture your children and to have light pouring through you. Light is upon you. Light is shining. You are shining. You are a shining, bright, happy, sunshine medicine woman." 

 I stand at my tree with my hands outstretched and they fill with stars, light blue in colour, all wishes for healing children. Each star is a wish to keep their hearts open and their spirit bright and alive. I  turn and i am surrounded by spirit children and a whole village of all ages around their inner circle. They all carry gifts and blessings, jewels that glint in the sun-beautiful rainbow coloured jewels and one by one they place them in my hands (I wear a golden crown suddenly with jewels and a bright purple one at my third eye) and they weave me in light and colour and support. They heal my fears until there is nothing but clarity and light. "You are a clear channel and you will attract beauty, love, health and wealth. These gifts that come in abundance are woven into your being to shine out to help fit the pieces together for others. The colours will find a place in each person. Soothing, healing, cleansing and renewing. Your crown is your beacon". I hold (oak?) seedlings in my hands which are planted in my womb and in a ring around my feet where my feet touch the earth, barefooted, deliciously feeling the moist, alive, purposeful earth. It has purpose, it has growth, it is wholly nurturing and enabling and i delight in touching it, feeling it, becoming at one with it. In between each sapling is a strong weave of golden light which is woven to support their growth. Allowing them to choose their path and direction, but also giving them unbending support which grows as they do. "It is natural to gift support to others, to help those who need it. It is possible when you come from a place of strength and wholeness in yourself. When you are whole you are able to help and support others. It is not a need, it is, it is a way that needs no asking. You see with clarity the need in others- the loss, the dents, the fracture, the veils that stop the light. The wholeness in you will allow you to be the healer you always wanted to be for yourself. A mirror of wholeness and golden light and love. Pure, simple, uncomplicated, shining, allowed to weave your magic or simply to allow the magic to take place. To let it all happen because wholeness brings faith, trust and true true happiness. This golden light is so healing, nourishing and divine, it is divine, it is the source and you are part of it. You have allowed the door to open again and there are no barriers. You were under an illusion that there were doors closed, but here you are radiant in knowledge, blessings and jewels of rainbow light radiating their healing and magic. They are you now, they are absolute, they are what always was and always would be: love in abundance. Your path is so clear- you are a parent, a mother, a wife and you are a healer, each time you meet someone who needs the light. You stand in this shamanic, healing, blessed space and cannot remember a time of such connection, love, empowerment, energy, light, hope and wishfulfilment as now. You bask in the glory of each moment here soaking up every ounce." The elders step forward now with different gifts- emerald glass/jewels with planetary and star wisdom, wisdom of all the ages. Green is the theme. Metatron, the angel, allowing the blazing orange light to light up each of these emeralds so that they shine.

Night has fallen and they stand out like glowing hubs/fire torches with magical powers-life enhancing, cleansing and healing any fragments, broken pieces, patterns of behaviour, refracted light and bringing out into the light hidden depths, hidden parts, untapped wisdom, untapped hopes and ideals. Belief that you can do something no matter what. Belief that nothing can stop you when you work for the highest good for all and from love. The emeralds have become like jewels in my hair, lighting my face and glinting in my hair. They sink into me, become a part of me and go deep deep into my psyche, into my cells, fires of warmth, energy and spirit. They heal, mend and connect. They talk to each other and they remember what it was like to be whole, to move freely, to be clean and clear and shining allowing the light and connecting with ease. They are delighted at this new speed of connection, they are permanently in touch so that everything moves easily and i am given a huge gift by a king (he also wears a golden crown). I undo the soft pink ribbon around the white box and inside on soft and fluffy sheepskin lies a clean, pink healthy baby -content, bright and so happy and safe. She giggles and sparkles. She has a twin boy who appears, i am not sure that i want him to be there, but he grows as i look at him, becoming a man and he hugs me with such love and strength and i see i also need this baby, this man in my life to nurture every part of me. The two babies embrace and join becoming a dancing ball of light which is gifted to me. I hug this ball of light to me and it bursts through any remaining barriers with the strength of its light. It pours into every part of me-the little girl- the bright energetic soul and the little boy the protecting, more grounded side. Both i need. They dance back and forth between one side and the other of me and strew their gifts. Silver coins of fortune, good fortune- so much luck and protection and delights. "They are important. Hold them but also let them flow freely because then they will keep replenishing endlessly." My feet are being painted, hennaed by the earth, my arms by nature, leaves covering my arms, tummy, back, head, legs. I am naked apart from leaves. I am nature- the trees, grasses, leaves, ferns, dells, moorlands, hillsides, flowers, spring, moss, baby clovers, dandelions- the wild things, the wild and natural parts to consume, to love, to be a part of .

 I dance in the streams and the brooks as the sunlight sparkles through the water glimmering, refracting jewels of light and movement all showered over me. Water is a blessing to cleanse, clean, clean out, washout and sparkle through your being. Your feet are washed in this delicious, singing, sparkling brook, you are again surrounded by your village of spirit helpers/family. They carry you and support you as you float down the gentle babbling stream of life. Yet it is so shallow that equally you could stand and walk, yet you choose to relax, to lie back in the sun and allow the gentle waters to support you. To gently soothe anything that needs to be, to hold you, love you as you grow and change. Welcome all these sparkling, bright, sunshiney jewels. Delight in the light and the blessings. Nurture yourself with raw and intuitively led foods - bless your food and allow love, only love, to enter your thoughts. You are at one. Thank you for sharing all that you are with us.

One final gift is from a little boy and then also from an old man. The little boy gives me a tuning fork to sound out the correct vibrations around me and the older man gives me a box of delicious foods to nourish me on every level to keep replenishing myself and my reserves forever. I thank them all so much and receive a collective hug and the old man wraps us all in his cloak and with his staff he winds us all in together until i am left in the clearing on my own with the magic wizards staff in my hands and all the gifts, blessings and wisdom safely wrapped up inside me.

What a deliciously magical and healing journey. I feel so blessed to have experienced it and it's ongoing radiant effects.

The Little Soul and the Sun

"The Little Soul and the Sun"  is a wonderful children's parable, adapted from the book "Conversations With God", by Neale Donald Walsch. I feel that it has a beautiful message about who we are, for everyone. 

Here is a wonderful review of the book taken from Amazon:

"This beautiful story is illustrated in lavish pastels by Frank Riccio, and features a parable about Little Soul--one who wants to experience itself as Who I Am. You see, Little Soul knows that it is Light--but feels that knowing isn't enough. So Little Soul asks God if it can actually feel what is means to be the Light. So God asks Little Soul how it can experience the Light when it is already as a candle in the Sun, along with the other billions of souls who make up the brilliance of the Sun? Little Soul entreats God to think of something--some way in which it can experience what it feels like to be Light.

God answers Little Soul "Since you cannot see yourself as the Light when you are in the Light, we'll surround you with darkness." Little Soul asks "What's darkness?" and God replies "It is that which you are not." Little Soul asks God if it will be afraid, but God says "only if you choose to be...there is nothing, really, to be afraid of, unless you decide that there is."

One of the central themes of "Conversations with God" is that in order for God to experience Itself, it had to be contrasted with something else, something "other". You cannot experience dark without light, up without down, now without then, fast without slow. The purpose of duality is to experience parts of the God-self in all its glory. In a sense, we are all a part of God, and God exploded into a million Souls to experience Itself.

However, when we made the journey Earthward, we forgot where we came from and who we were. The Little Soul and God continue the conversation, and talk about how everyone is special in their own way, each manifesting a different part of "special". Some parts of special include kindness, creativity, and patience. Little Soul decides that the part of "special" it wants to experience is the part of special known as forgiveness. A multitude of Souls gather around God and Little Soul to hear this extraordinary conversation, and God sweeps an arm towards them: "There is nothing to forgive" God says. Little Soul could hardly believe what God said. "Everything I have made is perfect. There is not a single soul in all of creation less perfect than you. Look around you."

Little Soul grumbles that this wasn't fun at all! How would it experience itself as One Who Forgives if there was noone to forgive? Just then, Friendly Soul offers to help him, volunteering to come into Little Soul's next lifetime so it can do something for Little Soul to forgive. Little Soul was incredulous, and aks why Friendly Soul, who was such a magnificent Being of perfect Light, would want to become dense and dark, slowing it's vibration in order to do this bad thing for Little Soul to forgive? "Simple", The Friendly Soul replies. "I would do it because I love you." Friendly Soul goes on to explain that both it and Little Soul have been male and femaile, good and bad, victim and villian, All of It. "Thus have we come together, you and I, many times before; each bringing to the other the exact and perfect opportunity to Express and to Experience Who We Really Are."

In being the "bad one" this time around, Friendly Soul will give Little Soul the opportunity to experience itself as One Who Forgives. Friendly Soul becomes serious and confirms that it will have to become dense and dark to do this act and that both it and Little Soul may forget Who They Were. Friendly Soul asks Little Soul a favor: to remember, in the moment that it strikes and smites Little Soul, doing the worst that it can possibly imagine, that Little Soul will remember Who Friendly Soul Really Is.

An agreement was made, and Little Soul goes forth into a new lifetime, excited to be the Light, and to experience that part of "special" called Forgivness. "...whenever a new soul brought joy or sadness--and especially if it brought sadness--the Little Soul thought of what God had said. 'Always remember', God had smiled, 'I have sent you nothing but angels.'"

My favorite passage of the book, which is the major theme of the New Age, is:

 "And so", God concluded, "when you are surrounded with darkness, do not shake your fist and raise your voice and curse the darkness. Rather, be a Light unto the darkness, and don't be mad about it. Then you will know Who You Really Are, and all others will know, too. Let your Light so shine that everyone will know how special you are!"

Take a look at The Little Soul and the Sun's - official trailer, the DVD excerpt and the book

 Let your light shine